welcome to my world

You can't really buy anything with 25 cents anymore

I would really like one of those inflatable trampolines in my room

and to be happy again, but yeah you can't have everything you want

My latest song obsession

the best lyrics imo

im sorry for always trying to see the funny side, it just made everything in my life easier

I don't know much about anything really, but I do know how life feels

of all unions in the world, i like spring onions the best! they give a hope

OOOH man i just love emo spoken wrd over the most funky beat ever created

but you can read my page for free

LATEST RESEARCH TOPIC

Just found out that tech companies try to fry my brain and make me an gambling addict. Day = ruined >:(

no but on a serious note, they really do that tho. It's called 'dark psychology' and it is depressing. Those 'look-at-us being so nice to you' companies aren't really that nice to you, it's really the opposite if u ask me. Which sucks when you realize this. It's kinda of like your roommates eating the last bit of tiramisu without asking your permission. But than it has some long lasting effects, and not just you being left with a empty bowl of tiramisu. (which is also really bad)

Social media really does use the same tactics as gambling machines and gives you the same effects as drugs. It's all based on dopamine. And the more dopamine something has, the more addicted you will be getting. So my question for today is:

Is it better to start an new instagram account, or start using cocaine?

Oh wow everything in my life took an 180 degree turn and slapped me in the face while doing it. Not even a 'sorry' afterwards like damn!

Atleast that explains why this page isn't up to date anymore. Because i made it the day before everything fell apart, and i haven't had the motivation to do anything anymore. But now i'm just gonna use it as my personal dairy and pray that nobody will ever find this. And if you did find this; please just never tell me, i dont want to know because i will just die of shame and feel like the biggest burden in your life even tho i have never told you anything face to face

I hate the fact that i cant even have fun on here, i have this perfectionism in me that ruins through my veins and bones that i cant get rid of. And it sucks the joy in life out of me big time but it also shows up as productivity and achievements so everyone sees it as a good thing. But i just wish i could get it off of me, i hate it so bad.

i've always been lonely, or atleast felt alone. but now it's worse than ever!! How nice!! It's the worst timing posible and i hate everything so bad now. Normally i was fine with doing stuff alone but i just can't anymore because doing stuff alone has become a mirror of my loneliness and that is the worst feeling ever!!! So I am now just stuck in my room with nothing more than my own thoughts. What could ever go wrong?

doing stuff alone has become a mirror of my loneliness

i was really proud of this line but it also worries my about my mental state

i cringe so hard when i say stuff like this ^